Extra low..

And so I am definite more than ever, I’m having dual feelings!!

Ok, like never before, I want to leave this college.. I’m feeling extra bored.. extra fed up to the extend that my final practical exam in a day to come, and I can’t open a single paper… I’ve piled everything to tomorrow.. which means I won’t finish.. but I just can’t study anymore.. that is out of my hands.. and.. GOSH! I hate that place and I hate the people there as well

However, at the same time, I can’t think I might leave it!!! My GOSH!

Zodiac

In one of the replies to Ahmed’s recent topic, Epitaph wrote those words:


“Just today I figured out why you have this deep insight into human nature and...like to investigate personalities...as this topic of Ring tones!You are a Capricorn! :))))))Hahahaha...irrelevant point. but believe me this gives a great deal of background of the personality of one person!let's say a Capricornia does not show his true feelings. May appear indifferent, calm and so cool!...though deep inside he does care and carefully listen and remember and record this!”


My O My!
Guess who is Capricorn : !!!!!!!

Today

-- On a hot summer night, would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red
roses?
-- Will he offer me his mouth?
-- Yes

So it’s been this day for everything. YUP! . you know, somehow no matter how life went on rushing, or insanely fast or even slow. You still keep on searching for this tiny corner you’d find yourself sitting waiting for you to come on by and start to move on together again. Sometimes, a bar of choco would do, sometimes listening to your favorite CD or holding a book or talking to a friend or even gossiping about someone you like. Its just, as I always say, forget about the big things and focus on the small ones, these ones what really count.

-- Will he offer me his teeth?
-- Yes

Today morning was strange. Got to wake up really early for a college meeting to have a project brain storming. And so our meeting was around 9 then postponed to 10, while in fact I got out of my home reaching the place at 10. :D was about 1 hour behind. Anyways, luckily we found the sub-lecturer around to explain a little bit of what we’d to be doing, and un-expectedly we had some funny stuff going on from here and there. When it was our time to return back. Suddenly we thought of hanging out, and YES we did!

-- Will he offer me his Jews?
-- yes

I went with Bavalova and B. to some restaurant down town, where we ate in the street and even drunk some soft drinks near by a kiosk where we sat on the pavement in the middle of the road under the extremely burning sun, but it was hell fun. Fun to the extend we weren’t imagining. But somehow, sometimes you always need something, I won’t say wild, but may I say un-usual to your life. Something you don’t always do every now or then not for t he sake of anything but.. to steel some moments of enjoyment in your life..

-- will he offer me his Hunger?
-- yes

anyways, as I returned home I was like dead tired, and couldn’t help sleeping when,, when I got this phone call of my dear G. She asked to go out walking, when I said “what the hell, OK”
Some more minutes later we were down walking :D .. was fun still. I mean, we aren’t that very close friends to say, but we got some things in common after all. Even some friends. Actually –more than some- friends. We’ve been gossiping all day may be. Walking around 3 hours or so non-stop, and promised to meet again sooooon, but next time for the pooool.. lets just enjoy our time more and more *evil laugh*

-- Again, will he offer me his hunger?
-- YES
-- And will he starve
without me?
-- YES

Retuned back home, very late in fact, and tired as never before to discover I can’t even post this little something since no DSL around. Soo, I’ve watched TV. To my amazement there was this Arabic movie I’ve been told about a lot before but never saw it for real “el selm wl t3ban”. Can’t argue that is a nice *nice* movie, not that exceptionally beautiful something, or may be its been me who do not feel amazed with things quite easily as before. And could be me, who is not fond of romance as before. I mean, I was talking with someone some time ago and reached the conclusion that life is not always the life we think, and it will still be kept as a mystery, one day up and next down. And what makes it quite unique, is the one thing that made you up today might be the reason to make you down tomorrow.. I don’t know.. but like, like you want to eat something salty at a time so badly, but what after you eat it??… nothing after all
And that what G. confirmed to me today as well when she said a phrase, I do not believe I’d forget “love is an over rated feeling” .. and yeah, why not take this theory in practice??

Looks I’m going hallucinating, its been a tiring day, completely adorable, beautiful and energetic… its just our lives do not always allow us this self space.. but sooner or later.. sooner or later we’d feel the peace..

-- And does he love me?
-- Yes
-- Yes

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Quotes from the song “You Took the Words Right Out of My Mouth” – Meatloaf
And wonder why I ever did…

Big YaaaaY :) 2006

the "Testing" exam effects :D

Come on everybody clap your hands

Now you're looking good

I'm gonna sing my song and you won't take long

We gotta do the TEST and it goes like this

Come on let's TEST again like we did last summer

Yea, let's TEST again like we did last year

Do you remember when things were really hummin'

Yea, let's TEST again, TESTin' time is here

Yeah round 'n around 'n up 'n down we go again

Oh baby make me know you love me so then

Come on let's TEST again like we did last summer

Yea, let's TEST again, TESTin' time is here

Download "lets test again"

I've got mail..

I found this mail in my inbox today, and gota tell you.. as a girl, I was impressed someway or another.. YEAH! Its almost true (thought some stuff, I'm not that sure about)… so here it is to share..



1. When a girl says she's sad, but she isn't crying, it means she'scrying in her heart.

2. When she ignores you after you've done something wrong, it's bestto give her some time to cool down before touching her heart with anapology.

3. A girl can't find anything to hate about the guy she loves (whichis why it is so hard for her to 'get over him' after therelationship's over.)

4. If a girl loves a guy, he will always be on her mind every minuteof the day, even though she flirts with other guys.

5. When the guy she likes smiles and stares deep into her eyes, shewill melt.

6. A girl likes to hear compliments, but usually not sure how toreact to them.

7. When a particular guy flirts with a girl very often, a girl wouldstart thinking the guy likes her. So if you treat a girl just as afriend, go easy on the smiles and stare ok?

8. If you don't like a girl who likes you, break it to her gently.

9. If a girl starts avoiding you after you reject her, leave heralone for a while. If you still treat her as a friend, talk to her.

10. Girls enjoy talking about what they feel. Music, poetry, drawingsand writing are ways of expressing themselves (which explains whymost girls like writing journals).

11. Never tell a girl that she is useless in anyway.

12. Being too serious can turn a girl off.

13. When the guy she likes calls her for the first time, the girl mayact look uninterested during the call. But as soon as the phone isback on the hook, she will whoop with joy and immediately starttelephoning her friends to spread the news.

14. A smile means a lot to a girl.

15. If you like a girl, try making friends with her first. Let herget to know you.

16. If a girl says she can't go out with you because she has tostudy, leave.

17. But if she still calls you or expect a call from you, stay.

18. Don't try to guess a girl's feelings. Ask her.

19. Hearing the words "I love you" is a great reassurance to a girlthat she is beautiful.

20. After a girl falls in love with a guy, she'll wonder why shenever noticed him before.

21. If you need tips on how to flirt with a girl, read romancestories.

22. When class pictures come out, a girl would first check who isstanding next to her crush before actually looking at herself.

23. A girl's ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy sheloves now stays in her heart.

24. Girls love having fun!

25. A simple 'Hi' can brighten a girl's day.

26. A girl's best friends usually know best what she is feeling andgoing through.

27. Girls hate it when a guy pays attention to them just to get closeto their 'prettier' friend.

28. Love means devotion, caring and happiness to a girl, in thatorder.

29. Some girls care about looks, some care about brains, but ALLgirls want a guy who will love and care for them.

30. Girls want nothing more than to feel loved.

31. Girls always hope that they can always remain as friend withtheir ex. But never know how !

He was a great man, and deserved all the best through his short days in the world..
May ALLAh reward him in his son and faithful wife after his life..

اللهم ادخله فسيح جناتك

To his soul, I pray to rest..
Amen

PS: please, any passer by to pray for him as well, and read el fate7a.

20 -full- days left, isA

And so, I’ll be away for a while.. written exams are on till the 11th of June isA, then the start of my practical and oral plus 2 projects ahead. Which means I’d be as busy as a bee till the 1st week of July :D

Anyways, gota say:

“God bless you all” ..

Pray for me :S
And Will be back soon isA ;)

Off, I go..

Today was supposed to be the last official day in college for this year, before the final exams and the start of the summer vacation (hopefully). However, since I wake up tried, so didn’t find whatever will to go and yet stayed home, which declares that yesterday was my official last day in college..

I know it’s not something big for you; and you’d probably say “that’s how it goes all the time, you entered school, spent around 13 years or so, and then went college. Years pass and all of a sudden you’ll find yourself a graduate, working somewhere.. or may be a mother of a punch of naughty children. One day your kids would go to school.. then college… blah blah…”
“Yeah..” that’s how I’d reply. “the train of life do never stop”

But somehow can’t resist feeling that this year was different; the step of maturity I’ve crossed was far beyond my expectations. This year I’ve learnt the meaning of team work, responsibility, sensibility, interaction, and the meaning of care for the real world. Real world in the sense of putting my virtual world aside for a while and looking forward focusing on the present, the ground and the living people! Starting by my dilemma of choosing a way to go (ended by taking electronics and communication systems department as my answer), passing through getting along with difficulties, thinking of being or not being, forgetting hurt..
Simply defining some variables in my life for the coming years to come.

I might not look as happy as last year’s final day, forgive me.. but can’t really imagine that one more year is left (isA) then bufffff.. off we go to a total different journey !
Can’t imagine, no matter how much I hate that place, I might leave it. Though the relatively little time I spent in college, yet somehow the soul of intimacy growing is more than I imagined!

Vague my words might look, but with every letter something is ringing a bell inside my head, a memory or a saying or simply a blurred picture of someone passed by me sometime. Every hall, every corner, every staircase, every tree, every single thing would be always engraved..

Mr. DXer once sent me an email with this intro “People come into your life for a Reason, a Season or a Lifetime”. Yet Only this year was certain of this phrase.. only this year I learnt that leaving memories would always bring heart aches no matter how sweet.. no matter how beautiful they looked at their time..

Love you all,
Blue

Today my heart feels extra sad…

Forget about people, forget about suffocating time and usual stress.. forget about the normal stupid talks or the random lame actions.. forget about the world’s politics or the internal corrupt..
I know the world would still keep turning and the sun would rise again from the east… but I can’t stop my heart from feeling sadness all thru..
Yesterday we had to give up on our flat to live in that new one that I still can’t love… and today.. my father will sell our car for a new wider one !!

I can still remember the day I opened our x-flat’s balcony, was about 4 or 5 years old, when I saw a small little red car under , my father was outside one door waving with one hand and peeping with the other… when my mother cuddled me in her warm arms and whispered “say hello to our new car..”.. we all were smiling then..
It shared… no.. ‘She’ shared a lot of beautiful memories… 1st time to go to school.. and even 1st day at college… our everyday ride to school with “eza3t el Quran” playing in the morning, and “El bernamg el mosiqi” while going back home!! You know that I loved radios because of that! … it was all about my fascination with the music played in the musical program that I urged my father to buy my 1st pocket radio.. then life went on..

We’ve called ‘her’ many names.. Sometimes “Zoba” according to the old song by Mahmoud Yassin “7elwa ya zoba” .. then changed it to “Batta”.. don’t remember the reason behind that one actually.. and there was “Za2zo2a” as well.. for how small the car looked like between other passing by cars along the way.. but we never cared for how small , beautiful or even modern the car was, as long as it shared our small family’s warmth and laughter’s..
Now…. It would be all gone and buried away except in our hearts..

I remember when we used to go to the beach with our uncles, we used to race who’ll be faster under 80 km/hr.. yeah!.. w enjoyed slow speeds.. it gave us more chance to cheer together!!!
And yeah, the day we had to drive my cousine before her wedding party… it was an extra cool experience peeping all thru the way… and yes I remember now my graduation party drive… now my brother won’t have it .. and his heart is breaking as much as I am, and may be even more..

So sad when you have to give up on what you like and claim its life!! You start by giving up things, then giving up places, people then traits … and at the end you find .. you’ve lost yourself in between..
How dull, stupid, awful and disgusting life is after all.. when I have to give up and forget in order to live.. !!

PS: father, So sorry if I strengthened a feeling towards you… but can’t forgive your new decisions.. can’t forgive you at all…

A walk with a Country Waltz

Its been 3 days back to back listening to the same musical piece “Country waltz” .. and still can’t interpret how pure I feel.. as if, as if I’ve been touched by a sentimental angle all of a sudden!!
I’ve turned very sensitive lately; I’ve taken a lot of un-reasonable decisions; some passed by safely yet some left a crack inside. We’ve had a fight; we’ve left each other for a while. Friends turned their backs to each other, wore vague masks and mysterious identities. But life went on, as it will always do..

After the storm and the clashing waves, the sea returns as peaceful as we’ve knew life long.. after the storm and the clashing waves, the skies looks as beautiful as if its her 1st time date with the greener earth, humming a silent melody that fills the air then fly all around the space invading our souls, and taking us to a far far better place we’ve never dreamt of before.
Friends do make up together again and fights settle to rest, only when.. Inner peace and beauty prevails.

I open my play list again, and set “country waltz” as the one and only song to hear all day long, only then I feel I’ve been touched by a sentimental angle and a heavenly melody invades my soul..

Peace