Before turning 18..

Zeinobia tagged me to write 6 things everyone should do before turning 18.
I’ll try to mention 6 things I regret not doing. Based on my experience, I think this way might help others, just in case.


1. Train the brain to memorize: learn to remember things and keep them safe in mind, and learn where to search for them in your memory. Memorize the Whole Holly Quran. Memorize poetry modern and new. It would really help you when you turn older.
See I’m 23, but feeling mentally exhausted with a short term memory like mine. Sometimes, it sucks. How about when I’m 50 or 80 years old, most probably would be living a world doesn’t belong to ours.

2. Play sports: Never skip PE sessions like how I used to. Force your parents to enroll you in any game. Play little and a lot. Move your body, refresh your brain. Run and swim. Learn to ride horses, and how to shoot a basketball.
I’ve never did that before, and now I regret. I try to join gym sessions, but it cost me pain all through my muscles. Its not easy, and I would never return as fit as before.

3. Learn the piano: every girl should learn the piano when she’s young. She should enrich her musical senses, it will help her later on. She’ll know how to taste arts. How to be as soft as a melody, wafting elegantly through life.

4. Read, Read and write: learn your mother tongue and other languages too. Learn German when you are young, its hard to learn it old. Read, read, read, read.. never stop reading.. make it your habit. And write. Learn how to know life thru its tiny details. Open your mind to new philosophies, and other opinions are well. Save your money for books. That’s the one thing I never regretted that I’ve really done :)

5. Mingle with people: Don’t be shy of who you are. Mingle with people and have your intellectual identity. Learn how to take your rights without hurting others or belittling yourself. Be proud of your success no matter how small, and learn how to ignore other’s negative feedback, no one would care about you as much as yourself and your parents.

6. learn how to choose the right outfit: follow beauty magazines. There is no harm for a woman to stay elegantly beautiful. She should learn how to tailor her clothes, and mix her colors. She should know how to putt make up and make her hair. Just don’t waste your money on beauty salons, but at least go there and indulge yourself every once in a while.



And I tag: Bavalova, Nuha, Sherif, Nehal, B, Jade, Tarek, Yehia, ADsabry, Dee, Gjoe, Shaimaa, Qabbani, Rain, Sara, Ana w Afkary, Mokhtar, Eyewitness and Memo... And to everyone passing :)
And for who doesn't have a blog, please reply with a comment ;)


Good luck all :) tell us what you regret not doing before 18

Last couple of weeks

So last couple of weeks, I’ve been working on my daily routine. I discovered I waste so much time infront of my computer which in return affects me negatively.
1. I turn more intense whenever there is a network outage.
2. my eyes hurts.
3. I sit less time with my parents.
4. read less.
5. write less.
6. stopped my Canvas.
7. hurts my back and neck.
8. hate people.

Sooo… what I’ve been doing lately, and think I’ve succeeded to a great deal in, is minimize my internet usage to a one hour max per day. I quickly check my mail and the blogs I follow, mostly while logging off all my IM’s. and tell you what, while I’m writing there isn’t any internet, and I’m not feeling so bad about it. Its like, whats the deal.. I’ll write a little and then read my story. I feel refreshed!
As for reading, I think I’m reading with a very fast rate. Unlike any other time in my entire history, where I’ve been having work or studies besides. In other words, exclude the time when I was in holidays.
I read like from 1 hr to 1:30 every day before sleeping, and try to vary my readings in a way that would enrich my mind even better.
No technical readings in the weekends. Nothing work related in the weekends. Its all for me to relax and have all the fun in the world.
After the working days, I do read a little bit of technical material to help me continue in work. Then check my mail, then go and switch completely to reading a novel, then sleep.
Canavas is during watching TV. I try to follow “El 3ashera masa2an” every night. Its one hell of a program, and one hell of an announcer.
Every Sunday morning, I go to the gym for an hr or 2 hrs of mere sports. Then I go walking for an hr or so. While walking I put in my mp3 and start my French lessons. I close my eyes while walking so as not to see people and speak as loudly as I would like without any embarrassments.
Ah, bear in mind that through out the sports time, I should never think in ANYTHING!.. I should not concentrate in ANYTHING. Let the world burn in hell, I should spend time for myself.

For the next couple of weeks I need to:
1. Read Quran and fast Monday and Thursday.
2. lose weight.. I have really turned fat (that’s a fact)
3. increase my technical readings.
4. really finish work at 6! I shouldn’t stay more than that.
5. get done with the bugging issue that already took so much time and worry.
6. decrease eating! Especially candies.

Things I need to buy:
1. Rest of Canvas threads. (I should sit today and write them down in a papers)
2. Mobile
3. Camera, or at least fix the one we already have.
4. A small lamp light with white light to read on before sleeping. I feel lazy to get up and switch off the lights at the end of my room.
5. 1Gb Ram for my computer.
6. Ahmed Bahgat’s books from Dar El Sherouq.
7. Valuable Alba watch.
8. USB Flash disk.

And by so, I believe that would be enough, see ya on good health.

On the missing piece of life..

I feel tired. That’s all I have to say. I just feel tired as if I’ve been running for years. I can not think. I can not focus. I can not write.
Well yeah, still I am content for everything. At least, hurrrray, I am working shiftless. :D like any normal person. No more waking up late at work. No more spending nights away from my house. But still going everyday is boring. I know now its more easier to meet friends on satuday mornings… but the 4 days off were marvelous. I am tired! And wish to go and sleep..
Yes yes, I will go and sleep.. shortly after I finish writing..
But what to write?
I do not know..

Yesterday I discovered something. There isn’t a single something I’ve started and completed. Every thing gets boring just before the last mile. Drawing.. writing.. DXing.. Blogging..
Where am I heading? No.. where am I now?
No where.
Just an average person, with average dreams if not below average.
I feel lost.

There is something missing in me that needs to fire me up. To go and move the mountains. Its not a matter or arrogance, but I know always that I am a unique person in a way. Everyone got to tell himself that every morning.
May be I stopped feeling unique once I stopped believing I am? You think so?
There is missing piece in my life.. I do not know where to find it.. or how to find it.. or which particular piece that is..

Rise my hat and smile..

Just finished yesterday reading the novel “kite runner”. And for the time being, I feel stuck.. and can’t wait till I read “A thousand splendid suns”..

How can words be like that?!

"It was only a smile, nothing more. It didn’t make everything all right. It didn’t make anything all right. Only a smile. A tiny thing. A leaf in the woods, shaking in the wake of a startled bird’s flight.
But I’ll take it. With open arms. Because when spring comes, it melts the snow one flake at a time, and may be I just witnessed the first flake melting.
I ran. A grown man running with a swarm of screaming children. But I didn’t care. I ran with the wind blowing in my face, and a smile as wide as the valley of Panjsher on my lips.
I ran.”

From a FB application

My birth date means:
"Things don't come easy to you, even though you have the potential and the caliber. Spiritually inclined, you tend to take a step back from the world in introspection. You're very sensitive to what's going on around you, yet you remain composed. Although you are brilliant, it may take you a while to find your niche. Your creativity is supreme, but it sometimes makes it hard for you to get things done."

Today's Quote

I read this quote on a friend's facebook profile status, and found a reason to smile..


"Some joys are better expressed in silence as a smile holds more meaning than words.
I was asked if I enjoy having you in my life, I just smiled"

Recap

I really envy such women who wear micro skirt, mini skirt.. which ever skirt shorter than mine and do not feel cold. I am wearing my whole cupboard now and freezing. I would understand if they are heading an air conditioned place, but open area?! .. its irresistibly forcing to question!

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Last Friday was my birthday. Again a very moderate day, may be bellow moderate. No celebrations, no festivals, no balloons.. Just my mother baked Basbosa, which I hate.. so I only got to cutting and distributing.. fair enough in my birthday I think.
The night before was a night shift, which ended on the morning of January 11. You can immediately reckon I’ve passed the day sleeping and woke up to cut Basbosa to my family then natural normalities of my current life, a.k.a onlining.

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That would take us back to work. Last week, I had to change my team. Now I’m working with different faces everyday. And everyday I tell myself, hopefully this would be the start of the remaining days before leaving them.
See, I’m not compatible with: shallow minds, bragging identities, exaggerating souls, snobbish creatures, dominating personalities, tasteless brains and the so call, high life people.
:D you can now guess who am I compatible with. Lol, and how on earth I’m trying to survive with such easy-mesy new fellow colleagues.

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Last December the 28th, was this blog’s 3rd birthday.
Time flies.
I admit being a horrible blog owner. But, dear blog, thank God you are 3 and still counting. Life is not easy pal, and you have to suffer as well. Me go to work, you wait.
But above all, we are still friends, you know that. I didn’t forget you, neither did I forget your birthday day, but I wasn’t in the mood. Things go wrong sometimes, things go partially wrong.. mm.. the other way only other times.. and things doesn’t go at all the rest of the times.
So, from now on, I don’t promise to be as before.. mm.. this years’ phase is certainly not the writing mood. I wish it won’t extend. Because last time I had it, it cost me a talent to fade away. Mm.. you know I can write, but always me the lazy person.. always me, the .. me I guess.
I will try.. don’t worry. I shouldn’t forget writing, I shouldn’t do.
Thank you for allowing me to invest in you, the previous 3 years.. and hopefully others to come.
Happy birthday dear blog. Happy birthday dear void, who ain’t a void any longer.

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Movies?!
Ah-haha.
Well, looks like the movies phase is extending a little bit longer.
Last vacation, that’s practically today the last day in it, I’ve watched 3 more movies.. tada.

1. Love actually: a booming blast. I loved it. And loved to believe love is all around us. Love is really all around us.

2. Finding Neverland: that’s what I call a quality movie picture. The start is a bit dull, to be frankly the 1st half is extremely boring. But the 2nd half, ever since the writer said he’s going to name one of his characters “Peter”, I reconnected the incidents and began to understand what is going on, and hence started the magic. Ya.. I cried my eyes out at the end of it. The young boy’s acting is way from heaven. Wow and applause.

3. The notebook: if one thing I’d thank this movie for, would be allowing me to discover that I’m a normal girl with normal feelings and I do like romantic movies!. Hehe *devilish look*. Mm.. well.. it might be an average romance, and it might be built upon betrayal –as one of my friends described the story- but at the end, I’m keen for the elderly human part. Its amazingly beautiful. Mm.. whom would we grow old with?.. that’s a question, time would only know its answer.
If I ever got to choose, I’ll instantly choose a life similar to this.

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I am really wasting so much time playing iThink on facebook. Its so funny .. and.. I like it :P

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And by the end of today’s topic, we conclude today’s edition of “Blue’s insider”.
See ya again, wonder when.. wonder how, where or why.. but it sure would come.. as long as air is entering and leaving… a.k.a.. we are living and breathing :)
God bless

Today's words of wisdom.

"Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, I think about the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport. General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. It seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it's always there - fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge - they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaking suspicion love actually is all around."

From the movie "Love Actually".

ME

I am neither a princess nor an angel,
I am neither a princess nor an angel,
I am neither a princess nor an angel,
I am just me,
And “me” is simply a human being.

Words of wisdom..

Not all people deserve to be kept in your heart,
not even 1/100 of them.

Movie time..

Didn’t I say long time ago I am into phases?
So guess what.. this weekend I was into watching movies again~ .. and I think I’ve watched a great deal, although I’ll never catch up with the pace… anyways, so here you are..


1. Ratatouille: thought I loved the plot.. I hated the rat :D .. there is something with me.. I feel disgusted from “animals” .. even in cartoon movies..
I didn’t like the long nose of his. I didn’t like he eating cheese. I didn’t like the French “ocordion” at the back ground..
Overall: 6/10

2. I am legend: what a horrible movie! I just hate the every second of it.. I HATE this time of sci-fi.. what’s with freeing earth people? What’s with extinction? Forget it.. there ain’t UFO’s in the outer space.. there ain’t diseases that will kill earth..
We will be living till the judgment day.. SO STOP THE NONSENCE!
Overall: big fat zero/10

3. Premonition: I’m not in love with Sandra Bullock, neither the story is original. For long, script writers discussed the “destiny” vs. visions..
Overall: 7/10

4. Bee movie: and how the cartoon movie to bee :P .. I loved it from head to toe. People it’s a good laugh.. thought it’s a bit similar to AntZ, but just go ahead and watch :D
Overall: 9/10

5. The terminal: didn’t I say before that Tom Hanks is the best?..
Overall: 9/10

6. Happy feet: its nice, but a one time watch movie. Mm.. I liked the penguins especially from Madagascar.. but here ain’t that funny, and I didn’t like the “each penguin should have a song for the heart” idea.. 2alsha awi :S
Overall: 7/10



And that concludes today’s round up, may be I’d watch Déjà vu.. and may be not.. not sure.. not sure, but sure will update you if I did.