Sepia reflection

Sepia reflection
Originally uploaded by Philippe Sainte-Laudy

My life has been revolving around 3 songs:
1. Top of the world by The carpenters
2. Windmills of your mind by Jose Feliciano
3. Blue cafe by Chris Rea

Now and then I have a mix of one or two songs. My life is like a Sin wave with a 30 mins time period. One hour I'm up, another hour I'm totally down.
I lost the ability to use words properly..
Words do kill, harm or murder..
A single word can keep you feeling guilty for life long! A word you can not capture or record.. something said and went in thin air .. but it can leave marks in the heart more than million hammers or nails can do.

These days my life is one and two. I'm on top of the world fighting all the windmills..
I feel like a peasant? a peasant who went suddenly to New York..
Lost? cold and hungry?.. but over joyed.. impressed by the whole new world..

I know this is not my place.. and everything will soon be gone..
But sometimes I can not help it.. I dream and dream and dream.. and dream.. then talk words.. and words ask for more words..
God!..
Why were we created with desires and needs?!
What if we were humans with hearts, but no craving for warmth?
or minds, with no urgency to think?!
What if we were souls that doesn't need to be fed?

Yesterday I had a nagging thought that I will die. I was so captured by the thought that I was afraid to go out.. was going to cancel everything at a second..
but one more second and I closed the door behind me..
instead of sitting down to write my will, I went to chase the sun.. and it was one "heaven" of a day..

it's fear my friend..
fear is the reason behind us losing faith in ourselves.. losing faith in our abilities and will..
Losing eagerness to go on..
Losing the love of charming lights within..
We lose the passion.. and then everything else losses its meaning..
Even words.. it will be hard..


I can hear "Top of the world" playing in my background now..
I'll forget about said words and my windmills.. and I'll think of the enjoyment I might once live :)

Reflections..

There is something about walking after rain, returning back home after a long working day. More like a new adventure. With a refreshing breeze, I expect new horizon in front of me.
Tomorrow hasn’t come yet.. and I still feel the sun is waiting for me with open arms..
Wait for me!..
I’ll run till there… for who really knows what or when..

Epitaph lost her blog!

Dear Google again,

We are a group of Egyptian bloggers really bothered by the blockage of the two-year-old blog "Epitaph_87" ( http://www.epitaph-87.blogspot.com/) along her gmail account (epitaph87@gmail.com), since October, 4th , 2008. She has sent you her problem and requests on Google Help Center and Blogger Support, but in vain. We wish that you'd help us retrieve that blog and account and answer the requests of our fellow blogress, sending you from (epitaph_1987@hotmail.com), and hopefully ASAP!
Just for notice, we have published this problem on our blogs!!

Thank you!

Google, Free Laila Blog!

This blog is restored now..
Thanks everybody for asking,
Thanks Google for making the link available again!

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Dear Google,

I wish this message would reach you because you've turned my life into a mess the past couple of days.
My friend's email was hacked, and somebody has deleted all blogs she's an admin to, including a blog we were preparing for a big event next 19 October called "kolena Laila" or "We are all Laila". This event was to help Women in our society's to speak up and fight against unjust traditions. (http://laila-eg.blogspot.com/)
Now everything is just deleted, and you do not mention even a proper contact email to send you our request to have the site back!

I can provide all ownership requests you need to prove that this blog is ours and we should have it back..everything, the URL, the posts and comments...

Google, I will NEVER forgive you if our voices are not heard on your Blogspot lands, at time you are calling for project 10 to the 100 !

At least we want the URL back..

One of the many Laila's
Lasto adri


PS: Girls, please promote!


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