I got it, I got it..

So YES! I bought a canvas picture at last.. and even though it cost me a fortune –especially being as broke as I am now- I didn’t really care.. Just went and bought it..
It was a matter of sever hesitation to choose a proper picture.. all of them seemed like the impossible itself to me.. in addition to, mm,, well.. I’m not fascinated with people’s portraits for example, or 1 one color kind of drawings.. etc..
Yet at last I picked my pick and working on that …

Isn't it just great? ;)

Can that be true?

I got that via an email, and I think it got to say something..
Few I totally believe in, and few I know nothing about.. soo.. its your say after all.. do you think "Can that be true?"


1. Guys hate s***s even though they have sex with them!

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3... Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile when there attracted to them

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonder ful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11. Guys get jealous easily.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves.

18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything.

24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's
too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

37. Guys don't really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

51. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of us.

52. We don't like girls who are too skinny.

53. We love it when girls talk about there ass.

54. Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like whither it's a one time deal or not ....

55. Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and un-noticeable tell them about yours...

56. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually.

57. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

58. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

59. Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

60. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

Don't you think so too?

Interviewing: is the art of provoking and lying with style!

Thus I say...

On the run... :)

Well, that job I’ve mentioned before.. finito.. well, I thought I’d be much more affected and most probably in the negative sense.. however, that didn’t happen.. in fact the rejection reply was one hell of an excellent reply that made me feel “proud” of myself! Hell yes! Though it was a rejection reply no more, no less… yet so elegant keda and ego boosting as well..

So no.. I’m not sad el 7amdo lelah, may be even satisfied to a certain extend and I don’t know exactly why..
I returned back to learning “French”.. now I can have a little conversation.. which is a great step…
You know, I might not need French in my future life isA.. bas something inside me is pushing to continue and in a way I don’t want to ever stop.. being a better me..

I’m have kind of a difficult time pursuing CCNA.. its not hard.. but needs a strong memory, which I lack..

Ah, by the way, yesterday I had a dish party with few friends at the club… was one real nice day..
Cheers, bye

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There is no Spoon..

Morpheus:
You have the look of a man who accepts what he sees because he is expecting to wake up. Ironically, this is not far from the truth.
Do you believe in fate, Neo?

Neo:
No.

Morpheus:
Why not?

Neo:
Because I don't like the idea that I'm not in control of my life.

Morpheus:
I know exactly what you mean.
Let me tell you why you're here.
You're here because you know something.
What you know you can't explain, but you feel it; you've felt it your entire life.
That there's something wrong with the world.
You don't know what it is, but it's there....like a splinter in your mind...driving you mad.
It is this feeling that has brought you to me.
Do you know what I'm talking about?

Neo:
The Matrix?

Morpheus:
Do you want to know what...it...is?
The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us. Even now...in this very room.
You can see it when you look out your window, or when you turn on your television.
You can feel it when you go to work, when you go to church, when you pay your taxes.
It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes....to blind you from the truth.

Neo:
What truth?

Morpheus:
That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else, you were born into bondage.
Born into a prison that you cannot smell or taste or touch. A prison....for your mind.


From: "The Matrix" part 1

1.. 2.. 3 ??

I hold the pen so eager to write, yet as soon as I start writing, everything fades away. The state of mental block has extended so long so far. As if a dark coma. Can’t comprehend letters as before, neither Arabic nor English. Wasting my time more or less in trivialities. Always thinking about somewhere but here.

Tomorrow would be the 1st day at new school year with me sitting at home! It feels extra awkward. Every year I used to enjoy buying new notebooks, pens and pencils the most. Used to go shopping for new cloths, new shoes.. I even miss the feeling of obligation to sleep tonight because tomorrow is a new day, where I’d meet familiar faces; some of them are current friends and others future ones. Now.. I don’t think I’d have the chance to meet new people for so long.

I sound desperate most of the time. Today my cousin kept insisting that something is wrong with me, and when I insisted back that I’m ok.. he hinted about something else.. and if what I got is true then he must be kidding :S … mm.. I don’t know … the whole day was weird.
Starting by the 1st eftar we’d have in my uncle’s house without his wife (God rest her soul in peace).. my 2 cousines got engaged with kids now… and my other cousine is about to get married.. and my cousin himself who was talking earlier got engaged 2 weeks ago…
As if time passed so quickly all of a sudden..

I hate such days when you feel you are living as a call for duty no more. You go visit people because u have to not that you want to. I don’t want to talk to anyone these days..
More than twice I’ve yelled at my mother’s face today.. mm .. I can’t handle her jokes about me anymore, as if I need a slight push to fire.. that my uncle tried to calm me down, but of no use. I left the crowd and went to my cousine’s room.

Tomorrow is a new day, though I won’t be going to college no more 5alas.. bas yalla.. its matter of days always no matter how long.. and who knows.. I might have a job offer phone call tomorrow or something else..

And ah by the way.. I’ll wait another week before I’d call that person in charge for the dream job I talked about earlier. I’ll force myself to have a little bit more patience… for who really knows :)
Good night.. or morning.. you pick your pick and have fun..

Random thoughts..

Ramadan is here, you probably know that by now; and it would be the 1st Ramadan I’d spend as free as a bird, you probably can guess that too. Around 3 months since I graduated with no sign of a job so far, and not the slightest intention to apply for masters as well.
I think I feel more relaxed, though I wish to get a job right now more than ever. Few of my friends got either engaged or started a career, so it makes one feel kind of bored sometimes. I hate waiting, it’s not a new info. I really really hate waiting like no other.

The past days I went thru different interviews, one of these was for my dream job, I asked the interviewer when would the result appear and he gave himself a due date like a week and a half ago, however, until this moment not a missed call 7ata. And it makes me feel a bit down almost all the time. In addition to, yesterday I discovered a friend took the very 1st position I applied for. Mm.. wasn’t a famous one aslan, I mean there wasn’t an advertisement for it or anything, I knew it through the very person who interviewed me in that dream job by the way, and so I thought like ok.. I’m going to hit the skies.. but nothing happened.. I was rejected..
Now it makes me feel awkward.. God.. I know I’d really like there and do my best…
But I keep wishing upon the stars.. I don’t know wither to call that person again, or keep waiting a little bit more till ALLAH only knows when..
I don’t know..

Ramadan is here, and nothing changed more or less. Except for one thing, I lost interest in watching TV or sitting on my computer. I feel everything a bit useless keda.. so I thought of buying a big Canava portrait.. I’d start doing it then hang it on my walls sometime.. why not.. I love canava and should never give in to that feeling.. ever..
I wish to go to the mosque a little bit more often.. and organize my time more..
Have lots to do within a very short time.. should finish the CCNA course, should strengthen my French better.. should finish reading Quran and the books I added to my list by El Ghazali.

How do u translate “canava” into English by the way.. I don’t know… bas so far I am pretty much excited about that very very.. it used to be one of my hobbies long time ago..
So probably waiting isn’t as bad.. I’d reconnect with myself again.. bas God.. let me know wither it’s a yes or no quick… I can’t think any further in any other thing as long as I don’t know my status regarding my dream job :(

Blue feels sad, yet wishing you all a happy Ramadan..
Takabal ALLAH


PS: I borrowed the above photo from "The holy month of Ramadan" Blog..
PS2: Do you think I should call or email or wait?

To all women: Raise your heads, you are free..

This week may be one of the strangest for me. I don’t know.. I feel my heart is very heavy. I don’t really know what I really want. So I keep on trying being the me I used to be and read.

I read books like I haven’t in months, especially religious ones..
1. “Screw it, Let’s do it”: By Richard Branson, an excellent inspirational book that I’ve already extracted few quotes from it.
2. “El motahadoon”: by MECA, for reviewing the Coptic situation in Egypt.
3. “El mar2a fl islam”: by El Sheikh el GHazali, Dr. Tantawy and Dr. Ahmad Omar Hashim, an average one.
4. “El tadayun el mankoos”: By Fahmy Huwady, and already discussed in my Arabic blog, pretty thoughts.
5. “Kdaya el mar2a”: By El Sheikh El Ghazali, and this one even better.
6. “Gaded 7ayatak”: By El Sheikh el Ghazali, just started, and seems interesting to me.
7. “Say7et ta7zeer mn do3at el tanseer”: by el Sheikh el Ghazali, mm.. didn’t like it that much.
In addition to few books about Human Resources and other management issues.

Reading makes me feel peaceful. With every new info I gain, I feel me a better person, relaxed and satisfied. Especially when its connected to religion. Except for 1 fact that irritates me like hell, the gap between Muslims and Islam. Why is that so? Why Muslims let other cultures to interfere and impose such ridiculous ideas on the beautiful religion?
Islam didn’t order women not to work.. so why they call women to stay at home?
Islam didn’t call for illiterate women.. so why did they deprived women from their educational rights?
Islam didn’t call for women working as servants in their houses.. so why did they humiliate women all through her life?
Islam called for respecting and honoring women.. so why do women themselves accept being used as a sex toy?

God.. its ridiculous… that very same lame look women receive everywhere…
Now I wish to say it loudly..
I’m proud to be a Muslim woman.. and even proud to have a mind to think, comprehend and criticize..