Can or can't.. thats the question!

I'm not a genius, but not dump as well. I know I'm smart. Very smart. And for some reason hate me when I forget the fact "no body can be perfect all the time"!

GOSH! I hate it when I feel low self confidence. When I forget everything and act as if I'm nobody.
I hate to be in the focus.. YES!
But hate to be treated as a leftover as well..

I am not good at college. Let me admit it. I'm doing ok, may be less than ok, however, fine. Just the memory that I used to be even better makes me feel sick. Every thing was going very very fine till the curve started to go down "exponentially" and that belittles me infront of other's eyes so I get confused and tend to lose faith in my capabilities, thought I know deep down "I can make it"!

I'm feeling horrible. I'm truly feeling horrible and can't control this "low self esteem" phase I'm having these days with every stumbling block passes my way.. I wish to have the chance to tell those geeks I meet

"Hay hay, nobody is perfect all the time so Stop giving me these looks!"

Old Cairo

I went yesterday to my best friend's "Bava" house for the analog project, to find her making this little surprise on the music "Gabriel's Oboe" I mentioned earlier in a previous post, with some "old Cairo" photos she got online. She knows how much I LOVE Cairo :)

So to her I send my deepest thanks, begad.. I feel great full knowing a person like her...

And YOU, whoever YOU are.. Enjoy her Old Cairo little clip :) and tell me what you think...

Bizzy Like a Bee

Yah, Yah, Yah.. I am busy like a bee these days. Look, this post was supposed to be published 2 days ago, and due to the recent updates, I couldn't make it until now, and even now, I'm trying to finish up as quickly as ever.
Look, on the 23rd, I finished my last exam "ASIC" that is, and was horrible, OK, I did horrible. The most horrible exam ever this term. That was expected, First, I didn't do my studying part well, plus the exam was terrible. Anyways, its over and now I got to write my To-Do list!

So let me count the days 1st. My vacation supposedly started on the 23rd of January, and will end by 9th of February. Now its 25th already, ok, I said busy and no wonder.

starting from the 2nd of February I won't be home, then I'm left with exactly 8 days to go.
So in these 8 days I have to finish:

• ASIC project: Design of OTA in a group of 2 under OrCad.
• Digital IC project: Design of a sound system in a group of 5 under VHDL, Xilinx.. so as to be implemented on FPGA.
• Communications systems report: in a group of 2, under Matlab.
• Satellite communication report: Everyone on his/her own, solve all reference problems, and summarize a brand new chapter.
• Graduation project: Install & getting familiar with Linux openSUSE 10.2 & TinyOS, plus intensive search for WNS & the used Kit!
• Extra work: Finish the previous testing lab. experiments before the new term begins.

However, I still wish for:

• Buying new glasses and having eyes check up (my eyes terribly hurt lately)
• Go to the book fair (apparently excluded)
• Go to one of the bloggers' meeting (most probably excluded too)
• Buy new cloths for winter (100% excluded)
• Go to the gem (Will try considering)
• Go to our class meeting (think its canceled already)
• Help mother in house work (Tensa..!)
• Finish reading "El zeni barakat" (I started all ready)
• Watch "If only" & "The holiday"

I can agree if you said "all these stuff are manageable", I can even agree if you said "I had much darker times", yet try to convince me "How on earth I'm going to finish all that in 8 days?!" taking into your consideration "its MY mid-year-vacation" and supposedly the last isA..

Bottom line:
24th of February is not the start of a so-called vacation, BUT marks the start of a new phase.. the "Bizzy like a bee" phase which will not end except: 1. by the end of the 2nd week in August isA this year (ie. after the EED day), or 2. Someone leaves this world in the middle..

Update:

• Done with installing Linux (el 7amd lelah).. Still trying to play MP3s and installing .rpm there.. But so far so good!
• Today my mother returned back home very sick. And yes guess what, I am stuck in here with the whole house work "All Alone"..
• I had the 1st meeting today for the ASIC project, and was terriblllly a @#%@%#$^$$$$$& "we did nothing, and thats not a good omen"..

Sooo

دقت ساعة العمل الثورى

Leave ya in peace, wish me Good Luck..
That's a good night (hopefully)

From Earth to...

"Woman was God's second mistake." -- Friedrich Nietzsche

After I received this quote via "I heart quotes" on twitter; I wanted to send Nietzsche this brief note, despite the long decades between us.

Dear Mr. Nietzsche (where ever you are, heaven or hell)
Today while reading your quote "Woman was God's second mistake", I thought of passing you this note just to tell that: if by any chance God ever did mistakes and the second was woman, then make sure the 1st was man.
Now we may both rest in peace.
21th century Earthly regards..
Not yours,
Blue

ASIC effect!

ASIC effect, originally uploaded by lastoadri.

PS: ASIC : Application-specific integrated circuit

(she2 mesh latef 3l se7a!)

Sada rada (",)")

Replying nadaha's tag, and tagging: Nesrine, Engy, Hechkok, Memo, Olivia, JJ (in a comment if you don't mind), Pinky, Layal, Dananeer, Masry & Dee! (and again, anyone interested)

Five things you don't know about me:

1. Not a talkative person who likes to sit somewhere in the shadow, away from the crowds and loathes whoever thinks him/herself something.
   
2. I drink more than 5 cups of tea / day. You got: pure red tea, red tea with milk, with lemon, with mint (n3na3 a5dar), with carnation (oronfl), earl gray tea, green tea, and green tea with jasmine!
3. Un-like normal girls, I'm not fond of babies 5als....
4. I can wear less stylish or old fashionable clothes than to ever, ever, wear a tight anything!
5. I hate whoever writes my name with "I".. hay hay, its "E" everybody! And I know, YES its pronounces correctly with an "I"..
   

Now 1 more tag left to go. The Engy's tag, and guess will be done (leave me a break shewaya please :D )

Me and Bava..

-- Bava, ana 3ayza a3ayat..
-- Ok, then 3ayati.. da aslan she2 moree7 gedan
-- ...
-- haaa, better?
-- 3adi... enti 3arfa eni maba3rafsh..

I'll go, try to study or sleep. I want to cry, cry myself to sleep. But I can't. I wish I can. I wish it all to end when I can't take the wrong and fed up with doing the right.

Nan, I want to belive you when you say "What doesn't kill you, well, doesn't kill you. God doesn't give us more than we can handle."
and what if..
no... "if only.."

A late "written" tag

CIMG1779
Originally uploaded by lastoadri.

Hechkok started the tag, then was Engy and Nesrine.. So there I take off as well.
And since I don't have something to write, (my mind is acting blank these days!) I re-wrote my favorite quotation ..


Now I WILL tag (neyahahaa): Tarek, Zeinobia, Layal, Deee, pinky and nadaha..

If only...

Stumbled my way today
art.com

A year passed and a thought change..

Aha, now I know why do I like "Love story".

The broadband connection was cut in the morning, and apart from being pissed off, I thought of doing something useful. And since I just finished my 4th exam yesterday, so didn't wish to do something very very useful; that's why, I switched on "love story" for un-reasonable reasons.

Exactly a year ago, I wrote my history with that particular movie, how I got to know plus few blubbers on the very famous quotation "Love means you haven't to say you are sorry" blahlalala
Right now, I think it's stupid! Sorry folks, but yes it is very stupid. The whole story behind the movie is stupid. I mean, it's nice to have such feeling da da da, but don't you think they were dashingly over reacting? Even if we assumed they are not, and love really means you don't have to say you are sorry or love in that sense actually exists, still the story -for me- sounds silly and stupid. (only the dyeing matter can be left alone.. that was touching)

However, I did really enjoy watching the movie, especially the 2nd half. Apart from the extraordinary background music, but you know Oliver Barrett reminds me of my very own self.

"Quite a wealthy son who's not on good terms with his father and can afford to go through the entire possible struggle just to get rid of his father's orders."

Just as simple at that..

The movie ended at lunch time, and since I got no guts to sit down at the table and share lunch with anybody (yup, turned off the yesterday's mood), I preferred to rather write such words, then wonder when I'd have the chance to post. And there after, I fetched another movie on the waiting list to watch.. a total different flavor this time "The omen"

Abridged on the 15th

Why can't we have passwords on some posts?
If such idea ever existed, I'll be over content..