Monday, January 29, 2007

Can or can't.. thats the question!

I'm not a genius, but not dump as well. I know I'm smart. Very smart. And for some reason hate me when I forget the fact "no body can be perfect all the time"!

GOSH! I hate it when I feel low self confidence. When I forget everything and act as if I'm nobody.
I hate to be in the focus.. YES!
But hate to be treated as a leftover as well..

I am not good at college. Let me admit it. I'm doing ok, may be less than ok, however, fine. Just the memory that I used to be even better makes me feel sick. Every thing was going very very fine till the curve started to go down "exponentially" and that belittles me infront of other's eyes so I get confused and tend to lose faith in my capabilities, thought I know deep down "I can make it"!

I'm feeling horrible. I'm truly feeling horrible and can't control this "low self esteem" phase I'm having these days with every stumbling block passes my way.. I wish to have the chance to tell those geeks I meet
"Hay hay, nobody is perfect all the time so Stop giving me these looks!"

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

bossy ya Eman, people are not perfect as well, fa they give u looks and act like u r less smart l2ann they feel so sometimes with others, 7aga zayy tanfees..
this is wrong tab3an bass i am telling u it is because they know that their second face has this very same problem...
fa naffady
and just focus on the fact that, if u cant understand or cant concentrate, then either ur cells are packed with caffeine and u need some juice or milk, or that u r not interested, so remember anything that makes u motivated with more enthusiasm to work...

Olivia said...

I felt the same in my last year at uni. You need to rest, eat well, de-stress, have something to make you happy.

Have you had a holiday yet?

How is your mother?

Nesrina said...

We all face some phases when we feel this low self esteem, it's normal but at the same time it shouldn't be for long.
If you are not good at college, so what ...?
You are studying Engineering, ya3ni it's hard enough, you might not be the best around ur colleagues but around other people, u r studying something they couldn't even think of doing.
Above all that, mesh ma32ool just one aspect that is ok would make you leave all the wonderful things that you already are.
7abebty you have absolutely no reason for this low self esteem, no body is perfect and no one is supposed to judge.
BTW, being good at college has nothing to do with being good at work, from my experience.
Cheer up…we love you just the way u r and we believe in u :)
Have a beautiful day :)

Anonymous said...

:) .. now you know what exactly what i was talking about..

but you can't confront those ppl with a bold look in the eye saying: if you look at me like that again ,it will be the last time you look at anything . unless you defeated the feeling itself..

there is 2 ways for this crappy feeling ..

1- it going to bring you down

2-up you go so simply..

get over the feeling to get over them.. you can do it .. you know you can it

doesn't need any prove.

the real question is .. do you wanna do it?? and if yes .. for what reason? just to prove that u can?? or because you really wanna do it?
either way RELAX because if you wanna do it ..

you will but not with that kindda of feeling.

get over it girl

Gee said...

Hello,
I came to your blog only last week and this would be my first comment to your blog.

Actually from my personal experience I used to be good at school then I was so lousy while studying engineering, I felt bad first till I discovered that this has nothing to do with work. Actually I found at later when started my professional career that this happens a lot, it is more like that you're having great expectations when entering college then you meet reality and you feel like "Is that all I've been working for?"

Sure this is sad, but I could tell that you're academic life is not the only measure for you're personal and professional life later, so it is fine if you are doing ok as you said but don't get depressed because you're not one of the best coz the best is yet to come.

Anonymous said...

Hey .. I know how that feels exactly
All u need is focusing on the positive comments and the praise u receive and neglecting all other type of looks, comments or anything of the sort
And u really have to relax for some time ... even if u have tons of things to do ... relaxing is better

Unknown said...

I was planning to write you how to overcome this terrible feeling of low self esteem and then I read all the comments send to you and realizeed something how could you feel so with all these people who loves you and care about you even if they are cyber friends but the love I felt can pull you from any bad mood you have.
people's love is the only thing that we reall gain in all our lives so apreciate it well.

Dananeer said...

you can
it is not important to perfect in everything
you know you are a smart and creative person
don't let them steel that feeling from u

sebek menhom

Lasto-adri *Blue* said...

Thank U all ..

Begad, all your words made a difference I was in bad need of :)

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