Change Within..

I know that, it has been a while; I haven't sincerely shared in anything of importance. Its all due time constrains.. *full stop*
Any how, I wont talk much today either.. for I'll leave you with this quote

The outside is merely a reflection of our insides. My mind is designed to tell me that I'm not crazy for thinking what I am thinking. Even if I have angry thought, my mind is giving me excuses and reasons why it is OK to think what I'm thinking. I need to be knowledgeable about the laws of harmony and balance. I cannot twist the laws to serve me but I can adjust my life to serve the laws. This is the law – I am here to serve the earth. The earth is not here for me to misuse and abuse.
Oh God, allow me the insight and knowledge of how to live in harmony and balance with my surroundings. Grant me change from within.
~*~ White Bison

Time to go… 73's

MY BLOG!!!

FINALLY YOU ARE WELCOMED TO VISIT MY ARABIC BLOG

http://lasto-adri.blogspot.com

mm.. should i be happy or sad then?!!

I was going to write how happy I am for being described as a GREAT WRITTER…
Until a horrible thing happened..
Let me catch my breath.. I still can't imagine or get in anything yet..

Well, it all started when I heard a new Egyptian announcer joined china radio. I was astonished, because thought they are presenting the Arabic program, HOWEVER, they are way behind pronouncing proper Arabic..
That's why, as soon as I heard "Ahmed Abu Zeid" on china radio.. I couldn't hold myself writing my 1st email..
ONE click away.. PRESS enter.. TADA..
UM in.. UM in..

And after reading my email, he described my style as pretty close to great writers.. as if I am already one of THEM!!! *he said*
And guess what also?!
He gona make another episode for my writings.. GOSH!!

And supposing.. that should had made me high up to cloud number 9..
BUT BUT..BUT.. mmm.. I dunno how to say that.. but I betrayed my best and dearest friend of all times..
YES.. I did.. call me a MURDERER..

Well, I hold my walkman to listen to Um Kalthoum's night slot as usual.. when I broke the wire connecting to the dial ..
No longer my friend can catch any station.. I left him as a paralyzed old cassette..
I took away his lively smile.. I took away his wacky laughter on the air..

I just can't imagine how I did so..
He was the only precious thing in my life.. because since the day my father brought him to me.. as a present for my success in school.. I haven't left him a second..
He was always there for me.. whenever I am playing, or relaxing.. studying or reading.. on bed or the beach..
Now what to become of me without HIM?!!

I dunno if I'll buy another or not.. or if I'd go and let someone to fix..
I just can't stand another one to take his place in my life.. or another hands than mine to mess up with him…

I just hate that all.. I don’t think being called a great writer or even noble prize itself would ever EVER compensate a happy moment I shared with you my friend..

Time to go.. 73's

Crying over Spilt Milk..!! *poor ME*

AT LAST WE HAVE A RADIO CAIRO WEBSITE!!!
www.CairoRadio.net
Hip Hip… H-u-r-r-a-y….

GOSH! I cant imagine I'm the reason behind shutting down one of the most popular and successful programs on DW Arabic radio.. If it weren’t for the stupid email I sent them, the rebelling campaign wouldn’t have been initiated.
But after all, they are the ones to be blamed. Why should they go through such sensitive issues, discussing our Arab society's taboos in that cynical way?!!

Let alone, that we need such things to be discussed openly and frankly.. YET, their must be some ethics.. Discuss with etiquette..
PLUS.. not by the Germans!!!

GOOD GOD.. I cant stand listening to these other dull, boring ladies presenting the substitute show..
I HATE THEM!!

Why do I discover I love something after I mess up with it already?!
Anyhows, I gota go and study these freaking electrical engineering's subjects.. mid-terms are knocking doors by now..

Time 2 go.... 73s

PS: I truly love the new colors.. that is ME.. *nodding*

Positive Attitude

Failure doesn't mean you are a failure,
It does mean you haven't succeeded yet.

Failure doesn't mean you have accomplished nothing,
It does mean you have learned something.

Failure doesn't mean you have been a fool,
It does mean you have had lot of faith.

Failure doesn't mean you don't have it,
It does mean you have to do it in a different way.

Failure doesn't mean you are inferior,
It does mean you are not perfect.

Failure doesn't mean you have wasted your life,
It does mean you have a reason to start afresh.

Failure doesn't mean you should give up,
It does mean you must try harder.

Failure doesn't mean you'll never make it,
It does mean it will take a little longer.

Failure doesn't mean God has abandoned you,
It does mean God has a better idea.

Time 2 go.... 73s

These movies gonna ruin me..

I just ended the 3rd movie in a row.. "Mickey Blue Eyes" , "The end of an affair" & last but not least.. "Sweet November".. GOSH.. the best..

And I wonder why the HECK do we love to torture ourselves this way?!!!!

You watch sweet romantic movies all the time.. listen to sentimental music.. read exceptionally magical novels.. and taste genuine poems in its softness and tenderness..Then you cry.. and cry.. Pretending you pity the dying heron, or the shattered gentleman…
While unfortunately, YOU are, in fact, crying your heart out on poor YOU..

So WHY do I like that, if I know the ending and the sequeal before hand?!!!!!!


Time 2 go.... 73s

#1. I wonder...

"Everybody is looking for that something"
That's how WestLife started one of their ever-lasting hits.. Pointing at happiness.. However, I wonder..
Do I look at happiness?
And why not?!.. I ask.. why not!?

Imagine, I opened my eyes one day, and found a box.. Written on "inside you'll find what ever you seek"..
Will I ever think of happiness?!
If not, then what else…?!

Or imagine, I was walking in a crowded street on another day.. People pass me all the way, to and fro.. and though I am supposed to be walking.. I feel my feet are kept firmly to the ground.. standing still.. but my weary mind, is spinning here an there.. Searching for someone I know.. and I don’t..
Will I feel my inner satisfaction if I found happiness then know no more.. or know nothing about whom I am supposed to know?!!
Who I am.. what I am doing here.. or to who are those faces I see everyday?!!
I wonder..

Its YES.. Everybody is searching for happiness.. yet above all.. Everybody SHOULD search for one's self.. There you'll find a genuine and unique kind of happiness neither you nor anyone before you, had ever tasted.. for its special flavor would last more than your forever…

Its said, its greener on the other side..
But I add.. it won't look greener unless.. I reach there myself with my blood, thoughts and sweat..
Then I'll feel it… much prettier than greener…

Time 2 go.... 73s

Bravo Mr.NasrALLAH

You know what!!
I really REALLY liked Mr. Nasr ALLAh in his speech today..
He understands the game.. and deserves it ALL...

Goo ON..

The small things that make me happy...

I love it, when I wake up in the morning to find the sun shining for me, like people smiling at my face. I love it, when I see flowers dancing with the breeze, like people cheering me all the way. I love it, when a friend winks to me, and another cares to ask "how do I do".. I love our moments of innocence, when we laugh from our hearts, just like babies do..I love it, every time I learn a new thing, I feel I can fly with my new butterfly wings, even if my feet are kept firmly to the ground..

And when I return back home, and my mother brings in my cup of tea.. her tender kiss and when she takes me to her warm lab.. I love, when its the end of the day, I sit beside my radio with my book, and listen to my favorite song..

I thank the Almighty for these blessings I have..
I close my eyes and smile at the small tiny things in my life, which make me happy…

What a song!!!

Yesterday was one of my worst days.. I got to tell you..
The workshop session was so dull, though I liked the material we had lots.. Yet, there was something hidden that made me feel uncomfortable.. I don't know really..

Anyway, Thanks to Shex, I got to know one of the very best Arabic songs I've ever listened to ..
It happened that couple of weeks ago, I heard a bit of that beautiful song on VOR (the voice of Russia).. and as a nagging thought, it was spinning in my head over and over again.. Till I discovered that he knows all about it, and I never knew that..
So HURRAY!!

Here is the link if you want to listen to it.. And believe me, even if you can't understand Arabic.. Just listen to the enchanting music.. Let it get through your veins.. Let it take you away to a beautiful place, neither me nor you, had ever seen it before.. then tell me what you think..

Ommi-Marsel KHalifa.rm

E-N-J-O-Y

Who am I?!!!

Why Do I Worry My Myself With...
What makes you you and makes me me?!!!