I feel tired. That’s all I have to say. I just feel tired as if I’ve been running for years. I can not think. I can not focus. I can not write.
Well yeah, still I am content for everything. At least, hurrrray, I am working shiftless. :D like any normal person. No more waking up late at work. No more spending nights away from my house. But still going everyday is boring. I know now its more easier to meet friends on satuday mornings… but the 4 days off were marvelous. I am tired! And wish to go and sleep..
Yes yes, I will go and sleep.. shortly after I finish writing..
But what to write?
I do not know..
Yesterday I discovered something. There isn’t a single something I’ve started and completed. Every thing gets boring just before the last mile. Drawing.. writing.. DXing.. Blogging..
Where am I heading? No.. where am I now?
No where.
Just an average person, with average dreams if not below average.
I feel lost.
There is something missing in me that needs to fire me up. To go and move the mountains. Its not a matter or arrogance, but I know always that I am a unique person in a way. Everyone got to tell himself that every morning.
May be I stopped feeling unique once I stopped believing I am? You think so?
There is missing piece in my life.. I do not know where to find it.. or how to find it.. or which particular piece that is..
Well yeah, still I am content for everything. At least, hurrrray, I am working shiftless. :D like any normal person. No more waking up late at work. No more spending nights away from my house. But still going everyday is boring. I know now its more easier to meet friends on satuday mornings… but the 4 days off were marvelous. I am tired! And wish to go and sleep..
Yes yes, I will go and sleep.. shortly after I finish writing..
But what to write?
I do not know..
Yesterday I discovered something. There isn’t a single something I’ve started and completed. Every thing gets boring just before the last mile. Drawing.. writing.. DXing.. Blogging..
Where am I heading? No.. where am I now?
No where.
Just an average person, with average dreams if not below average.
I feel lost.
There is something missing in me that needs to fire me up. To go and move the mountains. Its not a matter or arrogance, but I know always that I am a unique person in a way. Everyone got to tell himself that every morning.
May be I stopped feeling unique once I stopped believing I am? You think so?
There is missing piece in my life.. I do not know where to find it.. or how to find it.. or which particular piece that is..
4 comments:
Dear lasto,
i agree with u ,nowadays some time i feel
suddenly bored of every thing i like,but
i try something i didnot do bfore to remove
this feeling away
This sounds very familiar... i always have this feeling of "missing", i guess that didnt' help you in anything :D
Same Sentiments! Its just a passing phase, I suspect. The ability of not being able to be in control. =)
Maybe writing "A To-Do-List"(long term/short term) might kill off the boredom? Finding a cathartic release in the web of life..
Just hang on there! And Smile!
I think you have disabled the comments on your last post - so I'll leave it here & in all cases, it's all the same.
Force yourself to snap out of it... Life is damn boring & yes our jobs feel like slavery. I know this is easier said than dont - but you sound like you are on a verge (if not yet in) a deep depression... & it would be so sad for such a beautiful soul like you to surrender to it.
I say find passion in something you love girl. I feel your cure is to be in love, but if you have not found the man to be in love with yet - find another passion...
It'll give meaning to your life.. whatever it is - that's up to you... Charity, Photography, Sports, Education... Use your imagination. You'll certainly get out of this...
Good luck to you girl...
J
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