Sunday, July 03, 2005

I wander lonely as a cloud

I wonder why I stopped being as active and energetic as I am used to. Probably the hate I have inside my heart is getting over the most beautiful things have in life, Starting from my smile to my enthusiasm.
I want to talk and talk and talk. Such killing amount of talks I have but I can't let go. Thoughts are suffocating me alive.
I feel as if I am drowning alone. Screaming but not heard. Seeking a shore I can't find all the way. The sun is reaching to set and I am crying again.

If I can sail my boat and get out of here. If I can spread my wings and fly till I get lost. If I can dance till I fall. If I can write till I'd tear my thoughts apart. Probably I would feel fine then.

You know a dream is a like a river

Ever changing as it flows
And the dreamer's just a vessel
That must follow where it goes
Trying to learn from what's behind you
And never knowing what's in store
Makes each day a constant battle
Just to stay between the shores...
and I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never trySo I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Too many times we stand aside
Let the waters slip away
'Til what we put off 'til tomorrow
It has now become today
So don't you sit upon the shoreline
And say you're satisfied
Choose to chance the rapids
And dare to dance the tide... yes
There's bound to be rough waters
And I know I'll take some falls
But with the good Lord as my captain
I can make it through them all...yes
Yes I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

Garth Brooks - Till the River Runs Dry

Time to go… 73's

13 comments:

Olivia said...

Dear Blue, I am sorry to hear that you are feeling discouraged. I hope you can find someone you trust to talk to, release it, work it out - and recover your energy and happiness!
God be with you.
~O~

AG said...

we all go through these phases ,we fell lonely although we are surrounded by alot of people, we feel isolated ,nobody understands us, then we jump back to reality, so snap out ,nothing is really worth being depressed about its a waste of effort & time, enjoy what u have as u can never know what tomorrow is like.

michelle said...

Dear Blue, as O. I hope you can find someone to talk too. I don't know you that well, but I know that you can overcome this.

I believe in you!

Al Sharief said...

Salama'at ya Tadry !
Keep wondering, but on what sustain your enthusiasm that is the path of the heart that is the "Passion" that may convert your frustrating thoughts to a an excited better state...
the lonely cloud will some how, help keep the river flowing & running!
You'll be fine... You are propably at least abit better by the time you reading these lines...I wish you well, beside it's Ok to cry out loud at least virtually speaking :-)

michelle said...

Ok, BLUE

TAG YOUR IT

I'm spreading the Blog tag love, so feel free to jump in on the fun. Its where we go around and around tagging each other sites!

When I feel ick, under the weather, sluggish... I do it
Today I feel ick, sick a bit depressed. But O and SLO have made me feel better!

michelle said...

Oh I want to say

EVERY ONE, JOIN IN!

Waring, may cause BLOGLASH

Olivia said...

Hi Blue, we are here to spread the Bloglove!
I hope we have you rolling with laughter pretty soon ;)

And now I have bloglash too :P

michelle said...

ah, I found you!

Olivia said...

Sorry Steli, I was back at mine telling you about nobody in Greek

Olivia said...

A blog doctor must be called a Blogtor

Anonymous said...

quote :
(If I can sail my boat and get out of here. If I can spread my wings and fly till I get lost. If I can dance till I fall. If I can write till I'd tear my thoughts apart. Probably I would feel fine then.
)....hint : that's what foreign books are for !!
come on, no body BLUES in summer !!
@ least u didn get accepted as an AC :P

Who made in (art..)??
cheer up i say !!
cheer up !!
cheer up, n that's final ;)

michelle said...

I'm a Blogtor? Cool

Lasto-adri *Blue* said...

Olivia, Slo and dear Jia Li ..
Guys n gals YOU MADE MY DAY today..um jumping in the fun with ya..
i smiled when i saw ur names in the comment area.. till i read that line by Olivia "I hope we have you rolling with laughter pretty soon ;)" i was laughing out loud..
I DO HAVE CARING PEOPLE LIKE YOU..

:) :) Thank YOU my blogtors.. its simply phases of life as dear Souldry said.. and wish i might pass it soon hopefully.

souldry:
thanks friend for the help as ever ;)

Al Sharief:
i am better by reading your words ;)
and belive me, nothing really helps me going out as -virtually speaking cases-

Sheryous:
:D remember i am blue all the way >> *hin hint : u don't know my blue story ;)
Um tring up :-) don't worry

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