Today was supposed to be the last official day in college for this year, before the final exams and the start of the summer vacation (hopefully). However, since I wake up tried, so didn’t find whatever will to go and yet stayed home, which declares that yesterday was my official last day in college..
I know it’s not something big for you; and you’d probably say “that’s how it goes all the time, you entered school, spent around 13 years or so, and then went college. Years pass and all of a sudden you’ll find yourself a graduate, working somewhere.. or may be a mother of a punch of naughty children. One day your kids would go to school.. then college… blah blah…”
“Yeah..” that’s how I’d reply. “the train of life do never stop”
But somehow can’t resist feeling that this year was different; the step of maturity I’ve crossed was far beyond my expectations. This year I’ve learnt the meaning of team work, responsibility, sensibility, interaction, and the meaning of care for the real world. Real world in the sense of putting my virtual world aside for a while and looking forward focusing on the present, the ground and the living people! Starting by my dilemma of choosing a way to go (ended by taking electronics and communication systems department as my answer), passing through getting along with difficulties, thinking of being or not being, forgetting hurt..
Simply defining some variables in my life for the coming years to come.
I might not look as happy as last year’s final day, forgive me.. but can’t really imagine that one more year is left (isA) then bufffff.. off we go to a total different journey !
Can’t imagine, no matter how much I hate that place, I might leave it. Though the relatively little time I spent in college, yet somehow the soul of intimacy growing is more than I imagined!
Vague my words might look, but with every letter something is ringing a bell inside my head, a memory or a saying or simply a blurred picture of someone passed by me sometime. Every hall, every corner, every staircase, every tree, every single thing would be always engraved..
Mr. DXer once sent me an email with this intro “People come into your life for a Reason, a Season or a Lifetime”. Yet Only this year was certain of this phrase.. only this year I learnt that leaving memories would always bring heart aches no matter how sweet.. no matter how beautiful they looked at their time..
Love you all,
Blue
I know it’s not something big for you; and you’d probably say “that’s how it goes all the time, you entered school, spent around 13 years or so, and then went college. Years pass and all of a sudden you’ll find yourself a graduate, working somewhere.. or may be a mother of a punch of naughty children. One day your kids would go to school.. then college… blah blah…”
“Yeah..” that’s how I’d reply. “the train of life do never stop”
But somehow can’t resist feeling that this year was different; the step of maturity I’ve crossed was far beyond my expectations. This year I’ve learnt the meaning of team work, responsibility, sensibility, interaction, and the meaning of care for the real world. Real world in the sense of putting my virtual world aside for a while and looking forward focusing on the present, the ground and the living people! Starting by my dilemma of choosing a way to go (ended by taking electronics and communication systems department as my answer), passing through getting along with difficulties, thinking of being or not being, forgetting hurt..
Simply defining some variables in my life for the coming years to come.
I might not look as happy as last year’s final day, forgive me.. but can’t really imagine that one more year is left (isA) then bufffff.. off we go to a total different journey !
Can’t imagine, no matter how much I hate that place, I might leave it. Though the relatively little time I spent in college, yet somehow the soul of intimacy growing is more than I imagined!
Vague my words might look, but with every letter something is ringing a bell inside my head, a memory or a saying or simply a blurred picture of someone passed by me sometime. Every hall, every corner, every staircase, every tree, every single thing would be always engraved..
Mr. DXer once sent me an email with this intro “People come into your life for a Reason, a Season or a Lifetime”. Yet Only this year was certain of this phrase.. only this year I learnt that leaving memories would always bring heart aches no matter how sweet.. no matter how beautiful they looked at their time..
Love you all,
Blue
3 comments:
Blue! You started your blog again!
I missed you and when I came by to look today, I didn't expect to see anything. I was surprised to see this post.
Does it mean you really are leaving now?
xxx
Been away for a while. But tried to catch up on what I missed. Janet said "That's the way love goes". And I say "That's the way life goes" also. Change is unavoidable sometimes and we have to adapt. And as you said, the train of life goes on.
only this year I learnt that leaving memories would always bring heart aches no matter how sweet.. no matter how beautiful they looked at their time..
Not always Blue. Some memories live in our minds and souls forever and whenever they pass by they always succeed in painting a smile on our face or in our heads. Such memories are correlated with happiness.
Welcome back once again. Wishing you the best of luck in your finals, at your new flat, and in every step along this winding road of life...
Oh blue, please don't leave...I miss you
kisses
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