Last feast I was wondering whether I’d ever meet her again or not.
And it was not..
My favorite uncle’s wife just passed away.. and I am feeling sad begad.
I used to love this lady as my mother..
Now she’s gone.. and the whole house is falling into tragedy

May God bless her soul..
وانا لله وانا اليه راجعون

To-do list

Nonosh advised me to write down my to-do list explicitly on blog, to get out of my “falling down” and “surrendering” state.. it might help me getting down to real business, enough wasting time ba2a!


short term goals:

1. (done) iron my tomorrow's cloths
2. (done) clean my shoe.
3. fix Lasto's HTML code.

Semi short goals:

1. collect written notes on digital IC's slids.
2. (done)complete digital ICs sections
3. (done)do digital ICs design report.
4. Study previous lectures in ASIC.
5. (done)get the final lost lecture in satallite communications.
6. Complete the lost lecture in microwave devices.
7. collect the microwaves sections.
8. re-write communication systems 2 sections.
9. study previous communication systems lectures.
10. finish all undone sheets, or try to get answers somewhere.

long term goals:

1. Dcrease blogging & onlining
2. Increase focusing.
3. Finish reading "Sefr el bnyan", then "A5rt el mamlek"
4. learn sleeping early
5. return back to DXing.
   

Virtue is my favorite sin.. thus I said

Saturday, 21st October (night):
I asked some people on the bloggers’ room to congratulate me for just knowing “tomorrow is declared off” from my department in college. Yuppie! However, I ask, why the 2 feasts are only 2 months back to back?!

Sunday 22nd October (night):
Started watching “Mohammed – LOP”. One of the best Islamic movies one would see. Got a lot to tell about, but have no will to at the moment.

Monday 23rd October (morning):
Feast prayers went fine. Now I got to travel to my relatives to my father. Hate them, hate the day, hate the place and the people. Hate the everything there.

Tuesday 24th October (night):
Return from my uncle’s visits “to my mother’. We had a lot of usual fights and arguments concerning us and our parents. They always criticize our lingering to our PCs! I can’t get WHY till now! Why the hell they repeat that on and on? We’ve said many time, it’s our way of life, leave us alone. But they never listen and never give us a chance.

Wednesday 25th October (night):
I watched “V for vendetta”. I can say it loudly, its might be the best on all levels. Story, script, acting..etc. loved It especially V’s quotations. I should be gathering the favorite ones, once upon a time, after my 2nd watch isA. Now I really got no will for any thing on earth.!

Friday 27th October 2006 (2:45 am):
My clock is not adjusted properly, and since the 1st day of the feast I didn’t have the urge to fix it. Somehow I lose connection with time when I spend much time in house. As if time melts away in the usual looks of the dull walls. I even got to place my little Disney’s calendar beside me to remember the day, though it’s a bit easy for me, since tomorrow the 28th is my mother’s birthday.
Just finished “the lake house”, ALLAH’s most boring movie seen this weekend. HUH! I’ve now completed 4 movies in one weekend, quite a hit for me.. never did that before even on my holidays. Am I that bored?!
Anyways, the movie is utter rubbish. I saw the Korean version before that one, there for I lost part of the magic knowing what gona happen afterwards. “lake house” is a bit faster and more logical, however “Il mare” is more realistic, at least the ending. How could you change someone’s death?!
Break: my father is shouting now with my brother and I am afraid and down. Yes I am afraid from him. Hate it awi… and want to write even more.. and read more.. can’t sleep.
Back: Both ways, both movies are not worth watching, romance for romance’s sack which is crap.

Friday 27th October (3:45 pm):
Now I am writing the above on the pc, and going to publish but the router is out as usual. I began to doubt our neighbor (the one who got the router) take it off for him alone! Yes some doubts might be sins (as how I’m taught in Islam), but.. I do not know…
واتقوا الشبهات
After all…. I’ll go and wait till its back, then publish. Then search for a proper pic to upload. Am I talkative lately to write such flood of posts? I’ll be closing my Arabic for a while except for exceptional things. I need a break, to get down to my bubble again, to stay with me longer.

tomorrow will go back college, the thought hurts.. Bye

Same old boring romance...

The only Good dialouge from "The lake House"...


Kate: you weren’t there, you didn’t come.
Alex: I don’t understand. Something must’ve happened. I’m sorry. I’ve got two years and we can try again.
Kate: no, Alex. It’s too late. It already happened. It didn’t work.
Alex: don’t give up on me, Kate. What about “persuasion”? you told me they wait, they meet again. They have another chance.
Kate: life is not a book, Alex. And it can be over in a second. I was having lunch with my mother at daily plaza. And a man was killed right in front of me. He died in my arms. And I thought it can’t end just like that on Valentines Day. And I thought about all the people who love him, waiting at home, who will never see him again. Then I thought what if there is no life? What if you live your whole life and no one is waiting. So I drove to the lake house looking for any kinds of answer. And I found you. And I let my self get lost, lost in this beautiful fantasy when time just stood still. But it’s not real Alex. I have to learn to live the life that I’ve got. Please don’t write any more. Don’t try to find me. Let me let you go.

Before I travel..

One day ago, having my daily cup of coffee was sort of impossible dreams. Now it’s all true, I’m having my morning coffee in my own hands. People! Can’t believe my eyes..
>> Ya! That’s feast spirit..

Today’s morning, I went with my mother and father to a nearby mosque for eid prayer, my brother preferred a distant mosque for it was bigger where he’d meet some of his friends. Hmm, you know we’ve moved in years earlier. And till this moment I never adapted myself to the neighborhood. Its like feeling alienated from the every surrounding, “that’s not my place, that’s not my home!”..
I remember in my childhood the other mosques we used to pray in, much wider with lots of people to meet. Here, there isn’t a single person I know. That’s why I wasn’t enthusiastic going to that small nearby mosque, and was about to cancel the whole thingie. Anyways, we went there after the “1st takberat” were said standing beside some old lady keda in the open garden.

After the prayer was done, we discovered the lady is our neighbor in the same building..
>> Hurray! 1st to know in here…
Then guess what?! We found some people distributing small bags to kids with some balloons, choco.. etc. it was a nice gesture I missed in my childhood, more over, there was that nice looking lady distributing dates “tamr” and choco for much older people (like me :D ) ,, that was cool as well,,,

The best thing, as usual, the kids praying.. their looking in hijab really out of this world. Hijab means purity of the person, so what if you’ve seen some little something pure from inside and outside. Its… indescribable..
After the prayers, returned home with our neighbor to discover her daughter is equal to me in age!!! Quite strange, I never seen her, or knew she exists aslant, and probably she’d think of me the same.. yalla, ma 3alena..

As I reached home, opened the door and here I am in my right place “online” :D .. met few friends. replied some emails, Checked latest in blogs, bombared with silly SMS’s, then thought of blogging a bit before I’m off for the 1st boring visits for my relatives to my father, that (can’t hide) I hate the most of all!

Now I got 5 things left on my to do list:

1. reply on “Sherif Nagib”’s last lengthy comment on my latest post “Movie time”
2. write my thoughts on “Muhammed – LOP”
3. Continue my thoughts on “internet addiction” and reply on “The eye witness” comment.
4. Write some thoughts I thought of about Islam and love yesterday night before sleeping… wonder how people would perceive it..!
5. DO SOME STUDYING ABIT! THIS WAY IT AIN’T WORKING FOR ME..

Ok, its time to go for my relatives.. wish me easy time..

c ya soon , in shaa ALLAH

Movie time..

It appears to me that I am in the mood for movies now. Lots of them. Just checking my brother’s PC to find over 20 movies he downloaded and never mentioned anything about!
So here it goes. Now I am watching “Muhammed - Legacy of a Prophet”; then on my check list I’d follow by “V.For.Vendetta” and “The.Lake.House”

Hmm, these are the names that attracted my attention. I might try “Syriana” according to AG’s suggestion, though I’m not very much enthusiastic. Enough blood I’ve watched in “Munich” (by the way, I don’t know why I didn’t mention that movie previously.. guess me should).. and there is “Pride.and.Prejudice” another hit I watched couple of months earlier, and “Serendipity” that was my best of all. (guess I mentioned “Serendipity” yet in the other space that was deleted some time ago)

On the same folder there are some other names left like “The omen”, “the polar express” and other animation movies. I love animations. The best of all the best for me was “Anastasia”. I searched for it hell of times online but didn’t find a proper one with proper number of seeds to download! However, every now and then I try my luck till I have it and watch over and over and over and over…..

Still, I insist, me not movies fan. TV was and will be my worst enemy. Yet on the other hand, from time to time you have to go up to real life a bit. So now, it’s enough imaginations, and let me continue “Muhammed - Legacy of a Prophet” in peace.
In the next days I’d sure be writing something about it, it’s a good watch..

Yalla, wish me pleasant watching
Bye..

On Eid and stuff

I’ve just finished replying the hell of emails congratulating the “Eid”.. hmm, some years ago I would feel extremely happy when someone sends me a simple email saying “Happy feast” or whatever.. I’d feel s/he remembered me.. and that was the best gift I’d have in any feast.. even better than my new clothes.

However, as years pass by and technology became more common, I feel sending emails and replying turned more into a routine, systematic steps you do..
Open your email, select all the members in your contact list, then click compose..
Write the most ordinary sentences you’d think of,, then click,, its send..

Wake up tomorrow to find hell of replies in need to be check and replied to..
With one click I can say “happy feast” to over 200 person at a time.. and can make an auto response message for anyone who replies.. and that’s it.. the meaning is lost..

Tell you something, the feast lost its meaning in the 1st place. Seriously, and its not because I am older now, its because the spirit among us is different…
Hmm, ok,, I guess this shouldn’t be said now on the eid’s eve,, let the kids celebrate.. and me go study :D .. I didn’t open a single book ever since the start of this year.. sooo got zillions of things to check and reports to do..

Lazy lazy blue as usual.. yet after all, Happy Happy Eid to you.. and Delicious 3’orayba .. (3’orayba my best cookie for the eid by the way ;) )


Tada.. it’s a Bye

Life is too short to wonder about my mistakes.

According to someone’s advice, yesterday I watched the Japanese movie “In the mood for love”. Hmm, the movie is OK and a good watch provided you are an Asian culture fan. Else don't risk; you’d hate your life and the living.
The movie had few problems with me due the subtitle hassle. It was a Japanese movie with Spanish dub :D without English subtitle. And despite the .avi , I couldn’t play it on wmp or jet audio or real or anything! Had to download VLC and DIVx6 and still the subtitles I fetched won’t play .. after hell of trials, it worked,, and I was happy ;)

The rhyme of the movie is very slow, and would get on your nerve. Even the ending itself was some stupid crap. However, I liked the story much. It’s all about 2 people, a he and a she. They were living in the same building and discovered they are identical in every single detail. Starting by their favorite dish.. to their interests ..etc. even to their amazement, they discovered their partners were cheating on them and guess what.. Together!
So, all the time they were actually trying helping themselves to get out of the problem. Ironically they found themselves in the problem. They didn’t wish to be like them, but there were them.. soo..
I won’t tell the ending, for if anyone interested to watch it though. And still I am on my word.. go watch it if you like such films. The Asian ones are almost like a documentary, not like usual American movies, but they got a message after all, and a new story with a twist. Plus the most favorite thing to me, their movies are very very very clean. I haven’t seen a single one rated (apart from the big joke of latest BYJ April snow, it was an utter failure).

The best 2 things in the movie, the OST, a real hit and few dialogues… here is one of them

> I’ve had enough of the gossip.
>> We know it's not true, so why worry?
> I used to think that too, and it didn't worry me. But l was wrong. You won't leave your husband. So I’d rather go away.
>> I didn't think you'd fall in love with me.
> I didn't either. I was only curious to know how it started. Now I know. Feelings can creep up just like that.

Ps:

• I loved the protagonist’s dressing a lot.. why do not we have such style in Egypt?
• The title was said by the hero, and I think it very true..
• I think, I’m going to have a 2nd watch other time..

A mere question

When I am in the mood for a dance.. would you take my hands?

The last to expect

After all that time, my father does not know me still

I NEED HELP !!

NB: i opened the comments for this post.. because I badly need help.. I do not wish to continue this way for long... I am slowly losing MY life..



Most researchers agree that for many Internet addicts, the root of the problem is that the person is trying to avoid something in their life. Internet addicts typically have problems in their everyday life, usually related to family, relationships, work, or school. Many addicts are unemployed and have a lot of time on their hands. Going online is a safe, fast, and easy way to escape the problems of life, or simply to fill the empty and lonely hours of the long day.

Like any other addiction, Internet addiction will eventually create problems in the life of the addict. Usually the first problem to arise is with the addict's relationships with a spouse, friends, and/or family. Because the addict spends more and more time in solitary seclusion, they are spending less time with their loved ones. Arguments and interventions often lead to the addict lying about how much time they spend online, which invariably leads to distrust and discontent from loved ones.

When Internet addiction spirals out of control, people spend far less time doing the activities they used to enjoy. Every aspect of their daily lives becomes neglected, and their well-being begins to suffer. The powerful stimulation of the Internet causes the addict to become bored with activities that are mundane in comparison, such as reading.


Source: Are You Addicted To The Internet?