Thursday, August 02, 2007

Priorities, priorities..

Now that I’ve finished college and just graduated, WOW, I think I’m in bad need for a change. Change as in everything. Surroundings, people, habits even knowledge and education. I’ve applied for many jobs and just did 2 interviews, tell you.. both sucks! Simply because till now I haven’t clearly thought about my wishes and priorities.
You know lately, I’ve discovered that my English is horrible. It’s a matter of little vocabulary I play with and that’s all. Even the simplest of the simple phrases are messed up in my head. Measure on that my academic education, and my general knowledge. Mm.. let me say it loud.. I lost faith in me.

Yesterday at the interview the guy asked me what do I wish to work? And so I thought for a min.. “human to human relationships is the best”.. so I suddenly said “HR”.. tell me now.. what do I know about HR to believe it’s the best place for me?.. add to that, my bad need to learn how to deal with people in the 1st place..
And what If I can’t decide wither I like electronics or communications as working fields?!.. Don’t you think that I live a haphazard life??.
No, might not be that.. but a mis-used life thought, I guess..

I’m an average 22 years old girl who believes sometimes she’s going to be the center of the universe, yet nothing is shown yet. Was average in college, may be just below that according to my friend’s results. Not a brilliant somebody, don’t have “wasta” or special talents. So….

Today I’ve started remembering my French.. yaah! It’s been a while since I’ve lastly practiced that. “oui monsieur, comment ca va?”.. and as soon as I’d finish the current download, I’ll study CCNA as well in addition to reading “Al tadayun Al mankoos” by Fahmy Huawdy, as recommended by my friend Mokhtar El Azizi..
I’m planning to buy an mp3 player to listen to audio books and learn right pronunciation for different languages. Well I have little Spanish.. why not try to develop myself there too.. may be ask my brother and a relative of ours in German courses as well..
You know, I wish I can be that highly cultured girl I usually dream of.

BTW: for Al Sharif and JJ.. you made my day seeing you still around.. :) I always enjoy reading your comments with a wide smile upon my face… keep it up and shine on my virtual friends ;)

Blue is going somewhere instead…


Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've always wanted to be an HR too:D i know absolutely nothing about how to be one.. and now i forgot i did!!
anywayyy good luck!!

8/03/2007 11:52:00 PM  
Blogger greyscale said...

i'm going through pretty much the same experience as you...with all the interviews/confusion and stuff.

i know how tough it is, trying to find the best opportunity there is out there..

best of luck.

8/04/2007 04:08:00 AM  
Blogger MoonLightShadow said...

Why do I always feel as if you are speaking my thoughts out ya Blue?!

8/04/2007 09:07:00 PM  
Anonymous JJ said...

ur virtual friend ... that is sth :)
thank u miss ..
and who can say where the road goes,
where the day flows ... only time

8/05/2007 10:34:00 PM  
Blogger Salma said...

hey blue! You know, i'm still in college and i'm stuck with the same feelings and thoughts that you have.
i found out lately that my English isn't that good too and my general knowledge is fading away. i felt that there's something inside me calling for change and that i've to answer it...and thanks God i answered it.
Blue, I'm sure that you can be whatever you wish to be and you've this power for the change and Masha'Allah it's seemed that you answered the call. Just don't lose your faith in yourself, i'm sure you can do it :)
"Not everything that's faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed untile it's faced"


8/06/2007 06:47:00 PM  
Blogger Ayman El-Sherbiny said...

mmmm.... your English isn't that good!!! To be honest, the problem isn't in ur language, rather its ur lack of confidence. I see that u have many brilliant goals which prove that u will have a successful future insha'Allah. trés bien :)

8/06/2007 10:59:00 PM  
Blogger Rain said...

Hey Blue :)

I don't know why , but i have this feeling u'll get what u dream of ...i so believe in u , i know u'll work hard , in different jobs , go from here to there till u finally find what u 're looking for and then , u'll shine :)

8/08/2007 08:31:00 PM  
Blogger Lasto-adri *Blue* said...

Good luck you too.. why not re-think?

yaa rab.. its a ridiculous phase f3lan.. and i wish it would end very soon ba2a

friends ba2a :)
wa7shani awy wallahi

yea.. time..

"Not everything that's faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it's faced"
true wallahi..
Good luck with your english.. :) w may "Welcomes" for your 1st visit :)

lack of confidence..
you know, even though I know that between me and myself.. bas still it hurts reading it..
lel asaf..

Ya Rab..
Thanks for the encouragement :) ..

8/09/2007 02:00:00 AM  
Blogger Ayman El-Sherbiny said...

I didn't mean to hurt u with this, we 3ala fekrra many people don't believe in their selves, wel3abd lellah is one of them. this is a major problem in my character, and I have to face it. u too should do the same. sorry again for hurting u with my comment, I didn't mean it at all. wish u the best and success insha'Allah.

8/09/2007 04:30:00 PM  
Anonymous nesrina said...

Oh god I am missing a lot since they blocked the blogspot at work and I don't have the time when I come home.
Best of luck dear, rabena ma3aki. consider this phase a self development one and continue the search for a good job. we all did that.. it's pretty normal.
If you need anything, I am always there sweetie.

8/14/2007 09:53:00 PM  
Blogger The Eyewitness said...

First I believe that your English is great, at least your written English. It is better than mine and I was told by Native English Speaking Language Profs that my written English is great, so don't worry about it....
And hope you will have the enthusiasm to do improve your skills, I have always found it difficult to do so without having any external forcing power that pushes me...

8/28/2007 05:19:00 AM  
Blogger daffodilLament said...

Been ages since I last visited here, and hey..Congratulations girl!!! Gd luck with the job search, keep looking...and all the best for yr future endeavours! =)

9/03/2007 09:23:00 AM  

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