Monday, November 13, 2006

How could you feel relieved with injustice?

you can’t believe it, yet that’s how I felt today. I had to be mean and un-fair,
-- a matter of revenge?!
-- got not the simplest idea..

Well, my colleges started the “project” hassle, sometimes they say we’ll be with you, other times, they are not. I felt horrible! Hate to feel someone is swinging me right and left! NO! I have my own identity, and deep self respect. So under the dim of the light, I went and added me name to another project, which hopefully will be accepted in “yaaa rab, yaa rab.. I deeply wish for it this time”..
When they knew, they loved to act “the victim’s scene”… which made me even worst!
You know you are not victims at all, so stop this lousy play! You ain’t good for the rule..

Hmm, I don’t know, something inside me tells me I was real cruel and mean! However, I am not giving me excuses, but that is ME! If you treat me bad one day, I revenge very quickly and much much more than the hurt you caused.

I don’t know how I would react tomorrow when I see their faces! Something begad inside me makes me feel, I shouldn’t give a damn care. And ya, I am truly not giving a damn care, though they’ve been friends for sometimes. But once you betrayed, just forget it.. I won’t cry over someone never cried over me!

yet still as a matter of curtsy, they should be something to be said or done, I do not know exactly what. Hmm, they were friends and I pity demolishing their dreams this way. I don’t know, I really really don’t know what to do.


Anonymous Kaitlen said...

If someone annoys me , I annoy the HELL out of them .I guess what you did is the right thing, and you shouldn't be guilty for revenging your freind's bad attitude towards you.

11/14/2006 01:14:00 PM  
Blogger Hechkok said...

I am with Kaitlen, you were right and you shouldn't feel sorry for them but I see that you must ease things a bit after you did what you want.
after all they are friends and you did what you want so try not to loose any one.
Bass 100,100 wallahy

11/14/2006 04:32:00 PM  
Anonymous The Eyewitness said...

Follow your heart, follow the sound deep in your heart, if you feel you are invited to take bigger step of love towards them, just do it and never regret the consequences. But any way if not, just don't make the whole the situation, a situation of revenge and hatred, do it without with ease and love, make your relations normal and as it used to be with them before. You chosed another project because they were not clear with you, so let your soul be more calm and peaceful.

11/15/2006 12:59:00 AM  
Blogger Lasto-adri *Blue* said...

you've just commented while I was publishing the new entry! check it out..

YES! always follow your heart when it gives YOU scilent strong messeges, and of no reason at all..
as if, its something divin..

Now, i belive in signs even more and more...

11/15/2006 01:01:00 AM  

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