Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Today, as usual..

Today we had a project meeting, and since it the labor day official holiday, we had to take it somewhere outside college; when it was the solution.. wherever but our dear club :S
At 11 we met, and started the serious talk. It was fine and everything; the people are great .. etc.. yet.. I was not feeling ok. Its happening for quite sometime now. I’m always absent minded, not focusing, hmm.. in a desperate need to keep silent. Amazingly, I don’t find anything to talk about. Hardly laugh. Sleepy. Hmm.. horrible as it look isn’t it? Add to that.. today.. you know.. I always like walking alone keda.. especially these days, the start of spring, enjoying the air with free thinking. The colorful flowers on both sides looked extraordinary beautiful.. yet, I was sad with a heavy heart.. my camera was broken and so I can’t take any photos..

May be it looks a little thing to you.. yet to me it returns the same little question I had in mind before.. which is better..
To have something adapting your life to it for a while then its gone? Or not having it at all?
Like imagine having the love of your life for a while, building dreams and fairy tales together.. then alas, its not there.. or u’d have a broken heart or whatever that leads to the end… or you think not having one in the 1st place, and living as any normal human being aimlessly in life?

I never found an answer.. and think I won’t. its like which is 1st the chicken or egg myth. Hmm.. . got no clue..

I’ll just go now.. probably I’d meet you again in better format to talk..

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

interesting thoughts
~Bea--working hard to help women reclaim their dignity and dollars
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Unknown said...

It was never confusing, any dream you think off will last for a while and then it will end.
Even the love of your life, the person you are waiting for , a relation that will begin and then will end eventualy one day.
So from a concept that nothing remains for ever experiencing something for somewhile is better than never feeling it at all in your life time.
Don't ever forget that experiences are made from previous failiers and not previous successes.

Anonymous said...

Chicken First and then the egg. If you are depressed, do the thing you like doing. Everything will then be ok.

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